God’s Unfathomable Grace

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On Christmas 2008, my husband and I gave our four grandkids each a special day to spend with us and a choice of how and when to spend the day. The intent was to plan these special days sometime during the following year. On their special day, we took photos of them with my husband and I, enjoying each other in the chosen activity. The photos were later given to them on a CD. It was simply an effort to show them and us the value of spending intentional time with one another doing things that stimulate closeness and intimacy.

One chose to visit the Denver Zoo, one chose a day at the Botanic Gardens, one chose a train ride in the mountains around Leadville, and the youngest chose to meet the Budweiser Clydesdales then have ice cream. All of the special days were planned and came to pass.

During that year, 2009, my husband was diagnosed with 4th stage bladder cancer. By November that year, on All Souls Day, he passed from this life surrounded by his family, grandkids included. Suddenly our thoughtful gifts took on an almost cosmic significance.

Each one of those kids has an unbreakable love connection with their Granddad that was greatly strengthened by spending that special time together. And, it’s a joy for me to see them remember him so lovingly. Through that experience of consciously loving and caring for each other, we were all gifted by God’s unfathomable Grace. I remember every Christmas, along with the birth of the Christ child, the birth of a very special bond with each of my grandchildren and their Grandfather that can only be seen as an incredible gift from God.

Wishing you all the love and blessings of this Advent season.

About Barbara Miller: A long time Episcopalian, I’ve attended St. Brigit’s for almost ten years.  Following my husband’s death in 2009, I focused my lifelong love of all things spiritual on studying the Christian Mystics, attending retreats and becoming a Spiritual Director. I’m also in the process of becoming a Benedictine Oblate with Benet Hill Monastery in Colorado Springs.  

What do I love? I love family and friends, I love my faith community, especially the youth. I love being in the outdoors, I love enjoying our furry brothers and sisters. I love the Silence, the all. 


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